As I get older I find I want and need more time to myself than some consider natural. It isn't that I don't like other people -well, I like some of them. But my own company is necessary. Which is a highfalutin, psychological sounding way of saying that this was the laziest weekend on record, and I loved it, particularly the part where I stayed in my bathrobe half of Sunday and puttered and nursed a hangover, finally emerging Monday when I ran out of diet coke and was forced to shower and put on some clothes before crawling out into the world, blinking, in search of my carbonated elixir of life, my crack, my fizzy Elysium. Then I scurried back.
Refreshed by all this, Monday afternoon I was infused with a spirit of destruction and decided to take my two most abject sweater failures and reduce them to dust. This is certainly inspired by the activities over at the Blue Blog, but I want to be clear than I'm not joining anything official, OK? I just wanted to deconstruct something.
Rhinebeck Red started Monday as it has started every day since the fall - mostly assembled, ends hanging, mocking me for my foolishness in making something so bulky and yet close fitting.
Now it looks like this
It is still one of the most beautiful yarns I've seen, although extremely hard to photograph. It enchants me. Now I have to finds some way to make it up that doesn't make me want to throw myself on a sharp object when I look in the mirror whilst wearing it.
The other is this - Klaralund. The exact opposite sweater in many respects - shapeless, loose, way too big, and deeply unflattering even when pinned to better dimensions.
This did not go as well. Silk Garden does not wish to be picked out of the seams.
AT ALL.
I was so, so, so very careful, but managed to cut the sweater in two places on the last seam. And then I tried to pull it out.
I tried one end. I tried the other end. I looked at the pattern to make sure I was at the right place. I tried again. I turned it over. I tried the other end again. I went to one of the cut spots and tried to start it from where I had sort of created a new end.
Fuggetaboutit.
I never even got one row undone. It is bound to itself in some alchemical way I cannot comprehend.
After a while I threw it on the kitchen floor.
That's where it still is.
I don't like this yarn. I love the colors, yes, but I hate the yarn. The stripes leave me cold, the rough texture revolts me, I couldn't stand the weight of the fabric it made. It is to me anathema. And a fine reminder that you should always listen to your original instincts, particularly when they say "ick". I talked myself into it - almost became obsessed by it - because I liked the way the sweater looked on someone else. Someone, by the way, built nothing like me. Come to think of it, it was Alison at the Blue Blog. Apparently she has some strange power over me.
You know what I really want to do? Put it in the trash. It is going to stay on the kitchen floor until I make up my mind. Or the cat pees on it. Which is another way to make up my mind. Of course I still have five skeins of it even if I do throw this away. I expect that this will be a yarn that follows me, haunts me, for the rest of my life.
Then I went to knitting group where my spirit was refreshed and I began the Clapotis decrease rows. I believe I might have mentioned before that this group is full of fabulous women. I laughed so hard my throat burned raw. And I totally dig the way you get to drop TWO sections per repeat decreasing Clapotis. It makes sense. I should really have read ahead, because I can tell you I spent a lot of time staring at this trying to visualize how the end shaping was going to work, and man, I could not see it.